I have been a ghost around here and in much of my life because I feel like I can never keep up with what’s happening in the moment.  I keep telling myself that this is only a moment in time, that it will pass and we will look back and say, remember when we were both in school and living in those apartments and broke and really wanting new careers and generally praying for a break? But sometimes it is all too much and I find myself stressed and tense and mumbling this sucks every half hour.

And generally, I hate that I react that way.  Because really, really my life doesn’t suck.  Not at all, not even a little bit.  My life is filled with so much ridiculous love and happiness that sometimes my chest wants to burst open inexplicably.  But somehow, it’s the day to day bullshit that manages to overpower all of that and make us want to tear our hair out over things that in the grand scheme of life are very minor and almost ridiculous.

So life.  It is kicking my ass a little bit.  It’s 12:53 am as I type this and the gf has given up and gone to bed and I just finished not one but TWO papers due for my class that ended YESTERDAY and I now have 6 days off before I start back up again Monday and go ten weeks straight through the summer.

I remember the hell that was last summer.  It makes me cringe.

And then there’s the house thing and the job thing and the money thing and all are interrelated and all have complicated decisions attached to them and all can just go kiss my ass some days because GOD BEING AN ADULT SUCKS SOMETIMES.

When I find myself at this point, it is often important for me to step back and get some perspective.  Well, first thrust my head into a pillow and scream loudly and then drink a beer.  And THEN the perspective.  Priorities.

But the thing is.  Summer is here.  It’s warm, I’m wearing flip flops, I have a girlfriend who adores me, my best friend is weeks away from having her first born child and I am on the verge of buying my first house.

Plus last night she went and got me a peanut butter cup sundae with hot fudge and whip cream AND a cherry on top.  The whole thing was delicious but it was that cherry man.  That cherry is just the perfect little topping.  So sometimes life sucks but there are always cherries on top and someone to hold you close when it is too much.

So really, everything is just fine.