There aren’t a lot of things in life that go exactly according to plan.  Maybe nothing does, in fact, I would be willing to be that nothing ever has.  No, more often than not we are left to reorganize, regroup and reset our brains for the new plan life has thrown us – and even then, with the cautious uncertainty that this too will change, eventually.

We take comfort in the idea of control, the idea of our lives being somehow in our own hands – to push, to pull, to fight with, to be grateful for, to change, to create, to live, to die.  Some of us believe we will go somewhere else when all is said and done – some of us are less than sure.  Some of us subscribe to a higher power, some of us see that extraordinary power in the very ordinary parts of every day.

My point is, we do what we have to do.  To get through it all.  To manage through the chaos that life keeps throwing at us.  And if we are lucky, we have someone.  Someone there to hold onto, when it seems like things are falling on top of us, or speeding at an impossible ratio, or throwing us into a brick wall for the hell of it.  But it’s the chaos that keeps us a little bit afraid.  A little bit terrified that this person, these people we cling to – they could be in line for the next twist, the next pause, the next heart in your throat, world standing still moment we could experience.  An infinite number of things, at any moment, could be  the very next moment that changes everything – and you could turn around, with nothing to cling to.

Love is feeling like you could never hold on quite tight enough.

Do you know what this is
No, I don’t
But whatever it is
It’s very powerful
Have you felt this way before
Oh, I thought I knew
Do you know that I love you now
Oh yes, I do

Am I happy
Yes I am
Do I know you love me now
Yes I do
Do I know you cannot stay
I know
All about love
-stevie nicks-